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February 19 Finally realiseI just don't have the time and urge to write a blog lately...
just that today is abit different,
I don't have the time but I had the urge...lolzzz...
People's old saying,it has been a really busy life lately...
besides that,I had also realised alot of things...
Previously,I thought that staying for form 6 was always well-planned...
stay for form 6,get a good result and get a scholarship to a music school
and in the meanwhile,strenghten my music skills...
that was all well-planned...
until one day,I really wanted to give it up to my studies,
I'm really so tired of it,I can't take it...
homework,exams almost everyday previously,
and as I don't want my homework to stack again like what I did lastime,
I tried to finish it by the day...
I had changed...I pass up my homeworks...
But in the end,due to my mum's disagree and one of my malay teacher telling me to become a smart musician,
I decided to stay...
I don't wanna leave my friends too as I still can play music with them...
just another year...hope that it'll be well work out....
Looking at the pictures of someone I really do miss recently,
I finally realise what she told me about money being not important at all...
I can see the hapiness she had in the picture that she never had it for a very long time...
she once told me,money isn't important,what important is happiness...
I didn't want to acknowledge that saying before cause I needed money soo much to continue my life...
but now I understand...
I guess playing music although is hard but it's fun and it makes me happy...
seeing that I can play a piece or compose a piece of song out...
I'm gonna work hard for it,before it's too late that I regret someday..
I have too much regret,I don't want to have it in the future...
but will I regret plaing music in the future?hope so not....
Another thing that I realised is that music,this thing is a really big thing...
I always underestimated it...
until I finally like music and always ask about more and wanna learn about it more...
well,it's really a big thing...
so much skills to learn...
so deep it goes...
it's like you have to understand what's deep inside your heart
just like what you have to understand what's deep in the music....the feel...
I know it's hard,being wanting to be able to play 3 instrument well....and my vocal...
I'm not even at the border line,so much to learn and handle....
but I know I'll work hard...I can't give up...
I wanna show,I wanna perform,I wanna play music..
my dream~~~
I'm working really hard to chase my dream...
can no other of you underestimate me?
I'm glad some aren't,I'm really touched...the help....I love you guys
I'm so tired...
I just came back from my society,
asking my teacher alot of questions about vocal...
I still have to go on....
my next practise...
so much to do,so little time...
god pray for me...
I'm awaiting to step on my stage...
the bruise on my back...
it just won't fade...
January 09 今天，不准休息原来她的眼神里有着你的眼神
我根本不想对它移开视线。
以为能够彻底忘记，
原来我根本无法放下。
那个微笑的画面突然闪过，
我愣了，
振作耶！
我扬起嘴角，
再继续忙碌了，
恶魔，你不准休息。 December 28 那个微笑那个微笑，我好想念。。。
你好吗？
最近都很忙，只希望忘了你，
不管我多忙，好像忘不了你。
圣诞和新年的气氛充满了四周围，
看到很多人都在拍照，
我也情不自禁要和朋友拍几张，
就是从来没有机会和你拍上一张，
可能老天爷太疼你了，
就是不舍得让我毁了你的甜蜜笑容，
谁叫你是他的天使，他的最爱。
看到别人在尽情得让他们的另一半露出笑容，
我也好想能够有这个能力，
就是不想让那个笑容失去，
那个能够暖化别人心的笑容，
让人不想毁掉的艺术品。
今天，我坐在咖啡馆喝茶，
发觉一点也不过瘾，
好像缺乏了一些声音，
回味一下，
就是你的笑声，
我听不见了。
我乘坐着车，
发觉真得很闷，
开下收音机，
还是很闷，
再看下风景，更闷。
想想下，
原来我想念你的撒娇，你的可爱。
你真得很本领，
装傻，装撒娇，装可爱，
没人比你更吸引人。
我没有冲劲拼命下去了，
为什么？
原来，我想念你的微笑。
因为它好像会说话，告诉我要加油！
就只有它的加油声我听得最清楚。
那个微笑，我真得很想念。
跨过了脸的那滴泪，证明了这一切。
December 26 Christmas's over~~~I never celebrated Christmas all along...
I never like New Years coz I always felt that Christmas gives much more warmness....
New Year means you are another year older,
you'll gonna miss the things you did,
you'll gonna have to pack up your feelings for the fresh start...
I never like to grow up...
but I love presents,warmness...
Chinese New Year are always about giving ang paus aka money...
but Christmas's so much different,
you buy something you think that person would like,
and make that person happy,
the smile you see on that persons after opening their present...so extraodinary...
the feeling is soo much different than giving money,because you pour your love out.
Money is so fake,the fake happiness
but presents gives true love,true happiness,the heart...
I've always wanted a different christmas every year...
I always hoped for it
but it always dissapoints me...
the plan for this year christmas with my gang of friends had been canceled...
they didnt even wanna make the effort to fulfill the plan...
I guess this christmas was the most dissapointing ones,
cause I had hope towards this christmas.
fine,I'm over with it...get over it...
Well,now I have to fill my time with the upcoming performance for my society in school...
I'm not in charge but I will help whatever I can...
my responsibilities comes first...
"bubbly"'s a fresh start for me...
and I miss that smile sooo much...I wonder how did it had it's christmas...
I bet a happy one coz it promised to...
This dissapointing christmas...gave me this phrase...
I never believe in fairy god mother,
I never believe in Miracles.
Because I know a MonSter never belong to those stories.
December 22 I want to write again~~~I've never updated my blog for a very damn long time...
I once didn't feel like writing anymore...not afew times...
but now I feel like it...
Yesterday,it was my class aka 2006 4s7's gathering....
I didn't felt like organising it at the very first place...
but I continued because someone asked me to...
I had to keep my promise and not dissapoint my friends...
Afew people attended~~~15 people...much more lesser than the previous bbq gathering
BUT...
it was a much more successful gathering than the previous one...
we did things so warm...we played together,drank together,attack each other...
we were like a big family...i really do love you guys...
I understand that some people can't attend because of transports and overseas...
but you guys made me wanting to organise another one next year...damn it...lol...
althought there were some small arguments with someone...
but I still tried to put a smile and continued the event...
and I'm really glad and happy that you guys enjoyed this successful gathering...
I'm truely thankful to those who attended...
we decorated our own christmas tree,we threw water balloons,we opened our champagne...
everything was a blast...
A very thank you to Henry and his mother,his house spacing and food were wonderful...perfecto~~~
I've been really busy and messy for the pass few weeks after SPM...
I worked,I planned,I organised,I played,I sang...
everything was quite successful,as how I planned to go...
one of the busiest holiday I ever had,memorable~~~
I was really busy almost 24 hour around the clock,I'm glad I was
but after finishing this gathering,I'm free and on my way to focus in musics...
I wished I could story my holiday out,but there's too much,I just don't know where to start from...hehe..
the most memorable of the holiday prize goes to~~~2006 4s7's gathering....
I miss that smile soo much...
Jack's tarot was quite accurate,I might be successful in the gathering
but not in that friendship...it's a bad,worse and worst...
I guess it's gonna be end of it...I'll just have to face it...
no matter in what relationship,both has to pour their heart into it...
if one of them does not has the heart towards it,the other one will either give up
or continue being the dumb dumb,still pouring their heart into it,wishing the very best for them...
I'll be the dumb dumb forever...MonSter dumb dumb I am...
but....I really miss it,I once told myself I wanna protect it but...
I don't even know when it's smiling and when it's not...
how to do the task I wanted to...
I can do anything,I can fulfill anything but not that anymore...
I can only pray from a far pace and wish for happiness for it...
I miss it ,everynight before my sleeps too..
Christmas coming...what is your plan?
the best class of the year goes to~~~2006's 4s7
October 25 I'll stop hereI JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE WRITING ANYMORE...
I don't feel like letting anyone know what's my next step...
I know who I am and I will prove it...
MonSter stops here...
MonSter ain't continuing anymore.
I wanna keep this feeling,no one will ever know. October 24 10 secondsLet us cherish our memory,
the incomplete story,
one endless melody,
as one peaceful family...
这就是我们班歌歌词的一部分，
也是我写词以来，最有感觉的一次。。。 那又怎样，只有朋友会欣赏, 妈妈却听也不给一些时间去听。
今天，用华文写咯！
没感觉写英文。。。 一路来，妈妈都不曾赞成我想要去念音乐的理想， 也不是那老套的话，没钱赚，没前途， 你不一定有天份去学。。。 我承认自己真的没有天份，
可是，我没有说不要努力啊！ 没有一个人不懂，如果我要达到我的目标， 我一定把自己百分百的努力丢进去， 而且这是朋友们有目共睹的。。。 就偏偏我妈看不到，不知道。。。 她就是不肯花一点时间去知道。。。 昨天，我班的两位同学同心协力的，
把班歌给完成了。。。我当时真的很感动， 我。。。很想哭。 我所做的歌词已变成了一首歌， 当时的心情是真的难以形容， 我真的，非常感动。 我刚从医院探望我外公，
状况还不错了。。。 回家路途，我向我妈报喜，说歌已完成了。。。 我想念我做的那段英文词给她（因为她只会英文） 念到一半，我弟弟打断了我。。。 最后，我也没把它给念完了。。。 我妈也没追问我，让我完成，就一直在那里说话了。 我当时真的很伤，
我真的很想把我的词念完。。。 我真的很想让她说一句好。。。 我不在乎我做不做家务，让她称赞或骂， 我真的只想让她听听我的创作。。。 我只想借她的１０秒钟。。。 无所谓，我应该习惯了吧！ 只不过，我鼻子真的很酸， 我知道，我已经很想哭了。 October 13 This Unstable MoodIt haseen very long I've neer update this space...
I was working on another one which is just about a smile...
This 2 weeks I have been in an unstable mood..
sometimes I laugh like the whole world is mine...
sometimes I become so down like darkness has cover the world...
I know why I'm like that...
and I'm trying hard now to overcome it...just be busy,busy,busy...
and I will continue doing it...
Let's see...
I've been to Johor with my daddy last week on a LORRY...
It was nothing actually,nothing special sleeping in a lory,
I will just feel lucky if there is a place fo me to sleep...
It was cool for the whole journey though...
Uncles and my dad telling me about business
because I might inherite my dad's busiess later...
not for the interest I'm with into business...
is for the rice bowl my family needs it if my dad can't continue one day.
My mum can't handle it her own self...
I'm the eldest in the family,I guess it's up to me already...
The whole journey was quite tiring but I'm happy I learnt something...
Then,I saw that smile last few days...
I've been told that that smile was boring...
I thought no matter how much it takes,I guess I wanna make it smile more...
That's why,I saw it again...
seeing it laughing with so much joy...
I just feel so damn warm...
My unstable mood is because of that smile though...
because of me being able to sight it from just a far distance...
sometimes,I just break down and hate of what we are right now...
but luckily there's my friend who knows how to wake me up when I start to break down...
I then will tell myself...yeah,I know what I wanna do next...
Thanks...I guess you know who you are...
Next,my friend's boyfriend for being a sucker...
I really hated the attitude he treated her soo much...
what is it being a couple if you wanna buly her...
and what is it being a couple if he always hurts you...
who asked you to like him so much...
but there's so many people beside you who felt pain for you also..
a MonSter hurts...
Last few days Iwas so damn free...
I guess that's the reason stupid thoughts and unstable mood haunted me again..
my friend was there for me though...
that's why I told myself I had to get busy again to overcome it again...
when can I start to really relax..
I guess the answer is negative...
cause this feeling will stay forever or it...
I just want you be happy,that's all...
and I know you will cause you are the only one who answered me differently...I know you will... September 27 Not Yet 31st DecemberThe 2nd last day of exam...yipee...
can consider as the last day anyway...
coz I don't study chinese anywayzz...
what a deep breathe that I can put away...
I've put all my effort into this exam...
I guess the most for these 2 years...
I've never been that hardworking already...
but I know I've got to do better for October...
coz like Shane said:"I wanna get read for my photoshot in the newspapers."
lol...actually,is we are so determine to screw this SPM...
WE REALLY WANT THIS.
but I screwd up my chemistry today,
which I wanna get A but now no more liao...
because of my careless mistake...aaa...
I'll work out the experiment...one more month to fight.
Sometimes when I sit infront of the computer,
I just look at the lyrics wrote by the westside music people...
I'm like wow...such simple words can bring so much to a song.
What's powerful?the song or the lyrics?both?
Damn,I'm so inspired.
I wanna be like them one day...
I really want to do what they can do...
an outstanding music people...
and I know I'm going to devote myself to it.
Just wait,I just gotta get through this SPM.
The person I'm inspired to recently,
Avril Lavinge,The Click Five n Shyane Ward.
dang,Avril got her first album while she was 16,
just like my age now...and got famous just with the first song.
"I don't wanna be a hot chick knowing how to lip-synch,I wanna be a pop chick,a real one"
that's what she says...I'm so inspired by that...
she rocks her songs,rocks her mtv,rocks her life...
and that's what I wanna work hard for,rocking the music.
The Click Five,got their new songs too...
not bad with a new singer...I still like the cool breeze they brought for the first album "Just The Girl".
X-Factor,a competition in UK which we Malaysians don't know about it,
had made Shayne Ward somewhat a legend.
He won it and I was surprised Simon praised every performance he had on stage.
His voice,no range at all...just sing an touches into your heart.
I wanna learn to touch someone's heart too...
Get his song,"If That's Okay with You",damn good feel.
Inspired,inspired,inspired...
I wanna be like them one day,
not about the glamorous,
is the feel to touch people's heart with your song.
The feel rocking on stage.
Once is never enough.
Had some friend issue ago...
but had settled it...
settled it with a rather harsh way.
since no one wants to cherish this friendship,
why should I cherish it too...??
I don't want to get myself into somekind of shit for you.
I am who I am,I don't want to be a useless piece of shit.
In fact,I realise how much others worry for me,
I just didnt take time to notice,
didn't put some concentration towards the matter...
I've got someone better for me.
I'll cherish what's worth...
I don't want you to blacken my memories...
Saw some videos on youtube.com,
and really got interested into LATTE ART...
pictures drew on the latte with foam or itself...
kinda cool...really gives a cool feeling for person who enjoys life...
I'm the one suitable for such thing...I like it.
like I said,I wanna enjoy and I wanna rock out my life.
I guess I'll learn it if I found someone to...
just some small technique to make myself cool,right>?
Let's start it from learning how to brew a LATTE?
CARE TO TRY?
Just another 3 months,2007 is coming to an end.
I'm gonna miss this year alot.
I've been throught the bad things,the good things.
I guess the worse is being shut down,
the best is having my singing stage.
of course nothing gets better with crazy-ing with my friends.
It has not end yet,I'm gonna thrill myself...
It's not yet 31st DECEMBER.
September 22 exam-ingTrail exam has been going on a week,
we are really tired and nervous each day.
but I don't know why my friend said I look so relaxing~~
haha...I guess I am...
Anyway,of course during this period,
I had alot of dissapointed friends,
and some who are confident.
For me,I just do my best I can,
and hope to strike A's for SPM.
I'm gonna Nail it.
I had a feeling like sometimes I just got too busy
and forgotten to wish people good luck.
but instead I got the luck from them.haha...
I'm really sorry you guys.
I'm not the person with words in mouth,
my wishes comes from the heart.
I got scolded from my mum afew days ago,
I had stated it in the previous blog.
Yeah,I know she was just too pressured and angry.
I guess I was too...coz I was damn tired that day.
Stating my heart is a stone,
is not to my mum,
is to people I feel that are not worth for.
My heart becomes a stone to those who are not worth,
I know when to change
n I know who are they.
My mum,she's damn worth it.
I love you,mum.
Today,we finished exam by 10.
I thought of studying after we have breakfast
but my friends are lazy to do so...
so we went lepak-ing...hehe...
Found some strength going on with Shane...
The boys played strength gaming...haha..
This was Shane's score,he hit the jackpot,he broke the record.cool...
See this contrast?The left side is Bryann's score whereas the right side is Shane's score.
n this was Pet Pet's score,not bad leh...
Actually,I'm glad n happy to meet up with this gang of friends,
although I may be the only girl in it,
but I enjoyed hanging out with this gang...
coz we do stuff people hadn't done before...CRAZY-ing...
Thanks guys...yeah,real guys...
Again I saw that smile last few days,
this time longer n happier,funnier...
It just got printed in my heart once again.
I can even imagine it clearly right now.
AZA AZA FIGHTING LO... September 15 My heart is a STONE nowToday,my mum scolded me that I'm selfish
because I didn't closed my brother's room windows
which I thought my brother was in his room.
She said I am no other like those rich girls,
selfish,useless...
Does a rich girl helps pick shit for dogs?
Does a rich girl save their own money so that they can help the family nextime?
Does a rich girl walk to school or home even she is alone?
Does a rich girl stops her favourite lessons even if she doesn't want to?
Does a rich girl stands to their own trouble?
Does a rich girl act strong just to not get bullied?
Does a rich girl tutor for money?
Does a rich girl gives up a vacation to overseas not just to visit her grandma but to save money?
Does a rich girl wears pasar malam rm10 shirt?
Does a rich girl goes for a rm8 haircut?
Does a rich girl won't be calling for a doctor even she is sick?
Does a rich girl helps her brother to finish his typing?
The same day,my friend said that I don't talk sense
because I wouldn't help her to photostat something.
Does someone with no sense borrow her own notes for a friend?
Does someone with no sense talks for a friend infront of other?
Does someone with no sense sms a friend telling her the right formula to the maths question?
Does someone with no sense borrow exercises they bought with a friend?
Does someone with no sense teaches a friend to answer questions they don't know?
Does someone with no sense helps in your project while you get the same pride as them?
Does someone with no sense promises a friend to look for her whenever there are problems?
Does someone with no sense stays for a friend's back?
I got a small black listed for my own fault today
but no one is there to talk to me.
Instead,I got scoldings and criticizings.
For what I've done,I've been called a selfish person,
a useless piece of shit and
an unloyalty friend just because I didn't help with some tiny problem.
Is your study my problem?
Why the hell do I have to worry for your photostats for you to study?
A friend does that?
I tried to be nice,
too nice.
And now,I know who are worth it and who are not.
Not even the closest person understands me and
thinks that I have an attitude problem.
Yeah,know what?
You're all damn right.
I'm a MonSter,is not weird that I have attitude problems.
Yes,I DO have it.
and now,it's gonna get worse,
cause now my heart is a STONE.
September 10 Happy Birthday,DaddyI thought we were going to celebrate dad's birthday with cake today
but we just had a simple dinner at some restaurant around plaza damansara.
Chef & Brew...
heard of it?
I thought it was going to be something special
but besides the decoration n the soup arrangement there
nothing taste somewhat special...
geezzz...just another dissapoinment by the malays...hehe..
I ordered a mushroom soup n lamb shank italiano...
hoping to taste something different,Italiano man...
Italy ,my dream place...hehe...
but I still didn't taste out what's Italiano...
what a dissapoinment...
I'm not going back there for another dinner but maybe I'll consider for tea...
because I saw alot of different n special drinks there...might consider.
But there's something funny with the soup there...
not the taste but the decoration...
I wonder why it was place like that....
funny right?I guess it is because of specific heat capacity...hehe...
Is the chef studying too much physics or me...haha...
Words won't tell alot about me n you.
I just know You Love Me n I Love You.
Just hope for your good health.
Happy Birthday, Dad. September 08 4 days 3 nightsThe 4 days 3 nights non studying mode...
since my aunty and cousin came,
I gave myself a rest which I'm not suppose to have...hehe...
but really have to get off that hectic timing.
My head's gonna burst.
Physics and add maths everyday,
my mind is going to explode...
and next chemistry.
turning my brain into glue...
My cousin and her boyfriend came too...
and I have to take the responsibility of being the tour guide again...
afraid of being one coz I'm always afraid that I'd get lost...hehe..
but this time,I'm an expert...muahaha...
Aren't they sweet???my cousin @ her boyfriend...nice haircut le?I took him to my recommend hairdresser to cut le... I like this relaxing way,relaxing moment....
joking for every meal,every night with programmes,
I just can't resist this relaxing method.
I LOVE IT.
I can't believe that my cousin's boyfriend knows how to play the piano so damn well,
wow,impressed and I really wanna be like him someday.
I'll work hard for it.
4 days,I think we went through all the shopping centres too...
doing WINDOW shopping...haha...
but it's fun though...
I guess it'll be a hell of more fun if it was my friends I'm with...hehe...
I just can't wait till my trail exam is over
to taste the fondue with my friends...hehe...
I'm awaiting,wish us luck.
Now I have to get into my study mode again...
I'm gonna wanna NAIL it.
wish me luck now...hehe...
aza aza fighting... August 29 Truely never ending~~~It's 1.39am now(lol,I just like to start with time sometimes)
I just finished my task for the presentation an hour ago
and was trying to finish some math until now.
Dang,when did I start to love maths again since Chong Hwa.lol.
But I just did like I never knew what time is it.
Just do...do...do...do...hoping to finish 1514 questions in that yellow book of mine.
I hope that the presentation on Saturday is not going to be a bad one,
my task was to just powerpoint it
because after this task I'm going to be hell tired so I never wanted to present it,
just leave the job to the others,I'm worn off.
Another 2 weeks to trail exam,
and what we had prepared is never gonna be enough to face it.
I guess I'm dead,
but I'm not giving up wanting to finish all the syllabus anyway.
24 hours on it,I'm going to do that.
Geezzz...like I said never ending waves,
I just finished my powerpoint and another task awaiting me.
The lyrics to our class song is the next task.
I hadn't got any feeling to write or think about it,
the song my friend composed was just ok,
almost the same style as the previous few ones honestly,boring.
This isn't the end for the class though,
I promised the monitor to take responsible for the class magazine,
because I didn't attend the trip they are helding end of this year.
Well,promise is a promise,
I'm gonna have to start working on that after my trail exam.
geezzz...it's truely never ending.
I'm too awaiting for my self-made music camp for my ownself after my SPM.
haha...sounds funny right?
I just wanted to perfect my skills in musics,
that's why I'm starting everything from 0 again,hoping it will work.
My piano teacher even said that she could teach me violin...haha...
yeah,I liked the sound of violin so much,the sorrow I can hear from it.
she even promised that she will focus on me more,
I guess my interest and determination towards music inspired her.
I'll try my best,teacher.
AZA AZA FIGHTING LO...
bulls eye man.
August 27 Jemerlyn's B'DayIt was suppose to be 24th August,
everybody's busy for the holiday,
so the date has delayed.
Lied to her saying that there will be a big delivery to my house for her birthday,
hoping she will come over to receive,
she bought my words..haha...
but the surprise was busted though,by some people who wasn't that careful.haha.
Anyway,she enjoyed,we are happy,
no matter she knew it earlier ago or not.
A prize saying that Jemerlyn---the most 38 in the guitar society, 
the first prize I made in my lifetime,
thinking that it might be not bad for a birthday,
and it did work for her heart,I was damn happy. 
I didn't wanna take the responsibility of celebrating her birthday at first
but since it's the last year and she was the one who made me ever that happy in a society
so I took up the responsibility.
Although it wasn't prepared at it's best and it wasn't the best celebration
because of me busying everytime n didn't had time to think throughly the things
but I just hope that she received our heart that we still LOVE you.
Jemerlyn,don't forget we still love you,you still have us.Seriously,Hapi 17th Birthday.
one happy family...Guitar society forever August 23 D holidaYs~~Everything went well for the first few days,
our planning for studying and sporting together went quite well.
But it didn't last long,
just like everyone said,it's just a 3 minutes interest,rite?
I don't know...
Even a whole day plan for playing and hanging out had to be canceled.
geezzz...I was hoping for that day,
but now everything's just a dream.
hmpp...maybe I can't really rely on those guys.
Walking alone now.
I'll jog alone tomorrow,
study alone tomorrow,
talking to myself tomorrow or
maybe I'll even laugh to myself tomorrow.
Well,I know I'll come up with something to do about my room.haha.
Luckily I have gangs,
at least there isn't just one gang to enlighten my day.
It had been a long time.
I hope we do enjoy on Sunday. August 19 What a Sundayerm...I never study or do anything on Sunday...
usually I go out for partying on Sunday
but today I'm too tired,wanna just sleep at home...
What I did today was woke up early in the morning for jogging and kungfu,
came back helped my mum with some chores
and practise some piano
and went to bed.
then later again I saw that smile,
but not a very pleasant one though
I still felt warm in the heart anyway.
well,what I did today was really eat and sleep.
cause now I'm going back to sleep again.haha.
goodnite. August 16 Musics~my artMusics my life...an art I will never wanna get away from...
wanted to bind with it so much...
I just didn't have the chance and time for it...
or I should say I missed the chance.
Liking musics since I was form 3..
liked singing at first and
later found out how much I like the sound of the piano,violin or drum...
and knowing that I've wasted my time not knowing how much I love music,
wasted my time not perfecting it,
until I know how meaningful life is.
The first time performing music on stage was for THE WAY I AM.
I was just so damn in love with the feel of singing on stage,
hoping that it will accompany me for the rest of my life.
That few minutes moment was like my whole life of joy,
I just couldn't resist the feeling,
the feeling that my parents or friends won't understand because I LOVE MUSICS.
I've regret not perfecting my skills on instrument for the pass 13 years,
gosh,how much time I have thrown into the drain,
letting it flow like nothing special is going to happen the next day.
I FINALLY REGRET n I wanna apologize to my mum for paying the money for it...hehe...
Knowing I like to perform so much makes me wanting to bind to musics more and more...
Everytime somebody's telling me that he/she's going to perform,
my heart just couldn't resist it,memories of THE WAY I AM kept flashing back,
hoping that that 2nd feel will come again.
Everytime I see singers or performers performing on stage,
how much I wished that one day I will have my own stage.
That's always gonna be my best gift for my birthday,
nothing more I will want for.
so much events going on this year,
and now I finally get to rest down.
and even forgotten what I have been busying for.
to wipe of that memory?
how stupid I was,it will never fade,MonSter.
now my target is to get A's for SPM.
after SPM,my target to perfecting my piano,guitar and singing skills.
and I know that there is gonna be that person who's supporting me always in the heart.
I know that person's wishes is always in the heart,
hoping I will succeed one day.
I'll use all my devil's strength to fight till the end......with MonSter's claws?haha...
Aza Aza Fighting. August 12 Never ending wavesListening to Shayne Ward's "No Promises"
don't know why I had a sudden feel for it...
and Simple Plan's first album's songs...
so much sudden feel to it for now...
"I'm Just A Kid","Addicted","I'd do Anything","Perfect"...
all have feel into it right now...
Anyway,a task was over yesterday...
and another task has come again...dang...
Today,early the morning,woke up by 5.30am...
went for morning jog for warming up,
listening to my brother's mp4,
having so much feel towards a person,a thing...
memories flashed back like it was yesterday.
I'll never forget that smile that always warms everything.
Anyway,woke up that early for morning jog
and kung fu practise...hehe...
then prepared going for the seminar for SPM chinese and malay.
My very funny chinese teacher forgotten about it today
and didn't wanna wake up
but we weren't late anyway,
had time for dim sum too,
thanks for the dim sum o.
The seminar was quite boring
but it weren't that boring until the essay part.
I had so much feel listening to it.
knowing that I like writing too,
I really wanna start looking into more books and lyrics.
maybe I'll be stronger.
Well,after this seminar,we are suppose to present it to our classmates.
So,this is my another task after the holiday,
or we should say during the holiday coz I have to powerpoint it out.
But I learnt alot about it anyway.glad to be part of it.
The waves never rest,
like in the ocean,does the waves rest? August 11 Farewell Society TeacherWell,it's exam week but still my determination to perfect this farewell...
altho it wasn't perfect in the end...
at least someone is touched for it.
that's the main point though...
A heart shape water having candles float on it was my target...
but it didn't succeeded...
coz my time was limited and I can't think of any other way to make it.
Well,it fail and we did it with another way,romantic though...
romantic isn't it?
teacher was touched,almost wanted to cry but managed to keep it to herself...
I guess because she cried the whole day already...lol...
so cute with it
what a cute teacher she is...hahha...
staying in the same apartment...
and this is how we got more close.
really a cute society teacher...will miss her...
and all I can say is Teacher,I love you,
she replied with a warming I love you too...
I guess that's what I just want,that's all...
Well,I guess this will be my last event to be held in the society before SPM,
cause I really have to focus back into my studies.
but I won't give up wanting the candle to float,
who knows,mayb my idea might be someone's birthday...
I will try again to make it float...make fire float...
Society gangs,aza aza fighting lo...
Teacher shu bin,aza aza fighting too lo....
 
Guitar Society's dudes...
the cake with candles
cute cute A Liang~~
August 07 Form 6 FarewellIt's already more than a week...
I didn't had the chance to write it down coz of the stupid virus which striked my computer...
hhhmmmppp...
We paid all of our attention to it...
We sacrificed alot of our time into it...
Although it wasn't the best but I guess we kinda brought out the theme...
There was some problems because of some bastards...
but there are ones that helped alot ...
and as presidents,we really do appreciated it.
It's a big event and it's my first time handling such big one...
experienced it and found that it was damn fun...
some cried...some was touched...
the perfect part was the song,
the romantic scene...
I've always liked it...
Soek Yee,you cried huh...hahaha...I don't know why but I know that this had made you cry...baby
I enjoyed it and love the society more and more...
this saturday another farewell for our society teacher,
the responsible falls on me again...they want it touching...
What's my next idea as the last 2 birthdays didn't really came up with anything special...
Sorry,Teacher that it is jz an ordinary and simple celebration,
I was jz tired...my mind can't think of anything fresh...
but I know what you really want for your birthday,
is us scoring high for chemistry in SPM...
I know that's gonna be your best present,
we will try hard for that...
I never give up,I just needed time...
everything's important to me,chemistry too...
Don't say that I give up,I never give up in anything.
AZA AZA FIGHTING LO... July 26 Sweet memories stuck in my headIt's 1.14am now I'm writing this blog,
I guess it's always the perfect timing to speak out,write out.
Wow,I have been busy the whole week,
for the farewell party helding on next Monday,
from food to games to performance to present,
everything has to be planned carefully and well,
just to hope that nothing will go wrong that day
and that everyone has really enjoy themselve that day,
especially for the form 6 leavers.
This is my first time handling such big activity,
handling a 2 hour party for 106 people,
I just hope our food is enough,
our games are able to get back on the form 6 for the memorable moment,
and that it won't be that boring,
our performance which will make things romantic,
I just hope I have something fresh and new in my head right now,
our present which will touched the bottom of their hearts.
I hope that we can do something that the society cannot bring out for the pass few years,
the form 6's memorable day.
but as I get busy,
somethings will lost,
and it will be quite hard to get it back,
especially my studies.
Goota get over with it already.
and there's one more thing which keeps bugging me,
if someone really cares for me besides my family.
I don't think so,
I guess I fly alone.
No one will understand why I worked so hard,
no one will understand what I'm striking for,
no one will understand the feeling of striking for it,
not even the person who has the idea in mind before anymore,
lost faith,
that's why I strike alone,
leaving what's good for me anymore.
I don't care anymore.
I don't answer questions related to my benefit,
I just want peace,
just peace.
You are already part of my life,
like a stain in my mind,
an invisible scar on my body,
I can't get it off.
Just give me some time,
some patience,
don't worry,
I promised.
sweet memories stuck in my head. July 20 Presentation "Don't Worry Be Happy"Today's my group's presentation,
as busy as usual and we didn't really had time for full preparation,
but it came out quite well,quite "high",lol.
This may be our last presentation in Chong Hwa High School,
I wanna make it special,
it somehow was quite,
thanks for the members in my group,
our presentation was successfully done.
Well done,guys.
Seeing the crowd liking their performance,
and teacher laughing till death,
We were really happy and satisfied,
and the most important part is that we had so much fun in front of the crowd.
The laughter just won't stop.
But too bad we didn't record it down,
else it's gonna be a hell of a laughter.
It's ok,such event stays in the memory forever,the school life.
"Don't Worry Be Happy"
Just a smile to settle worry.
although I didn't really deliberate the message properly,
but WE HAD FUN.
thanks for having Dessan n O.U the couples,William,Szu Yin and Yi Jie the drug panda,
Well Done Guys.
After high school,there will be more presentations in colleges or unis.
I don't mind you guys on the msn asking me for ideas for your presentations,
just ring me,
and I'll promise to give you whatever ideas I can come up with for you guys.
AZA AZA FIGHTING LO.. July 15 拜拜,道德老师拜六,道德老师在中华教书的最后一天,
我们都计划好了,
而且很开心,一切顺利...
52个可爱MUFFIN,52支蜡烛,
放成一颗心,心里藏着另一个心,
真的好浪漫,
当然这个浪漫的注意是由我这个浪漫主义者策划的...哈哈!!!
厉害吗?
起初别人还以为我是说说笑的,
没想到我真的把它实现了,
真的是个难忘的一次.感觉蛮爽.
老师真的万万没想到一踏进教室就好像在谈恋爱吧!!!
相信没有人的FAREWELL会像你的这样SPECIAL.
去年是创歌,今年搞浪漫.希望下一个EVENT有更特别的IDEA!!!
下一个就是你的生日咯!!!敬请期待...
老师要求的表演,
那天我还真烂,
因为没做充足的准备,
所以乱乱弹了"非你莫属".
也代表了我的心意和答应啦!!!哈哈!!!
老师的FAREWELL卡还是当天才弄的,
谢了可爱PANDA,她的IDEA,
还真让老师满足.
还有谢谢BOM姐去买MUFFIN,不然我的IDEA真的用不上了,
还有谢谢 ORANG UTAN N TING TING 帮我设计 MUFFIN 的位置,
不然我在那么忙的下课肯定搞不来.
还要谢谢那些去参加三铁比赛赶回来的人,你们都完成了任务哦!!!
还有谢谢整5S(HE)的52个人的配合,
这个FAREWELL才会那么SPECIAL...
我是 ORGANISER,所以我一定很开心及感激.
诺琳生日无法搞特别,因为大家都不能出来,
希望你的可以和子欣一起过,
我还记得我与ERIN的计划,
我一定会想办法实现.
当了吉他学会的高三欢送会的副主席,
希望这次的会比之前或其他学会来的特别,
因为可能是我最后一年搞这样的活动,不,是确定最后一年.
就尽力让你们从开幕到闭幕都觉得特别吧!!!
都很忙,忙得没时间真正和老师谈谈,
希望你还好,要好好坚持,
我一定支持你,
我这个星期一定抽空,希望能够和你谈谈...好想念没人干扰我的日子哦!!!
AZA AZA FIGHTING LO... July 09 HAPPY BIRTHDAYSo many people's birthday these 2 days...
hhhmmmpppp...
yesterday was our society's president's birthday
and today is our society's teacher and a very funny girl's birthday,
2 more important guest's birthday for July
and 3 for August,
wow,it's going to be a debt...
lucky me I am a money planner...haha...not a very good one thought...hehe...
I guess finally i blend myself into a society that I love so much,
never in my life in chong hwa I thought that I would like a society that much,
too bad that many of the friends this year are leaving in this society,
I guess getting into this society was damn late,
but God has given me what I should have to enjoy,
I'm just glad....
Really hope I could spend more time with this society.
Happy birthday you guys,
Soek Yee,A MU and Yu Mei,
hope there will be a next celebration where there is me.lol. |
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